hi ho! hi ho! off to work i go
so i just finished another week of work; slightly longer than usual. ok maybe more than slightly. and some would ask the question "how do you work those long hours?" or the implied derivatives of that question "why are you working such long hours?" and "wouldn't your life be better spent doing something else?".ok so no one has actually asked those questions but in my little world i make up conversations with people in my head because i don't really do a good job of conducting them with my mouth. so i will answer previously mentioned questions with a long tirade which more than likely will go into much more than answering questions and of which i have no set plan for as of this very moment i am typing
answer to question 1: well i sleep at night and get up and drive to work and do my job and eat food that provides chemical energy which my body turns into various useful forms of mechanical energy so that my limbs move and electrical energy so that my brain can oversee everything. i drive home and eat again and sleep so that the process can be repeated. my labor is not physically strenous and therefore i function about the same as anyone else - i'm awake for 18 (give or take 1) hours a day and i supply my body with enough chemical energy to sustain that. there's no surprising answer to "how" i do it anymore than there is to "how do you watch tv all day?" it's really not that hard.
the more important question there is the "why?". and the answer to that question is thus: basically somewhere deep inside of me it is important to do my job well and we are all driven by what is deep inside of us so clearly that is what is going to win out when it comes to the allocation of our time. why is my job important to me? i don't really know. maybe its because i really enjoy what i do, maybe i feel like i need to "provide", maybe its the only thing i feel like i'm good at, maybe i am just a people pleaser and don't want my coworkers/bosses to think less of me if i don't work as much as they do, maybe i don't have any idea what to do with my time if i don't work.
and for answer number three - yes i'm sure it would be and i could give you a list of spiritual "goals of life" that float around in my head from various sources. but truth be told they don't sink into the depth of me and therefore they don't change what is in the heart. some would try to gloss over a person's actions by saying something to the effect of "but that's not what's really in their heart" - well yes it is. if there is one thing that is true of humans is we always act on what is in our hearts. there may be a struggle within the heart for control but always we act upon the direction of what is controlling our heart at that moment. would my life be better spent doing something else?: not at the moment i was working those hours because my heart was being controlled by whatever it is that said i needed to work those hours.
posted by jc @ 10/07/2006 03:03:00 PM
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